Wednesday, March 18, 2015

This will be my first and last post.

Compassion.
Is very rare now in society.
It has seemed to have lost its meaning.
Whether it's from teachers or peers, 
everyone has turned selfish.

Whether you "see" us or not.

Failing a class. I don't give a shit really. 
Sorry, but I'm actually not really sorry, at all.

At least I can say I didn't loose my sister.
Which almost happened yesterday at 4pm.

That's probably why you haven't seen me around 
school the past few weeks. 
I'm needed in my family that I care more about.

Don't get me wrong education is important,
but family, by far, is the most important.

I may not graduate with my class. 
I have a 2.263 GPA. 
(I'm not ashamed, that number defines who I am in no way whatsoever. 
I don't need to be a doctor to help save a life.) 
Moving states threw me way behind. 
That's no excuse. 
That is not what is important in my life.
maybe yours, but not mine. 

I could work hard and be able to say I graduated on time....
....But It would suck to say I graduated and lost one of my best friends. 
One of which I only went the first two years of my life without, 
until God knew this dry Earth was in need of Rain(e).


I decided to sacrifice something important for someone irreplaceable. 

I could've lost my little sister to SUICIDE.
All because true priorities and compassion of people have been lost.

I care about more important things than school.
I may not be "school smart" nor have I EVER been.
But I am very intelligent. 
I don't need or even want Lone Peak High School on my diploma. 

I'm going to live my creative life a different way than you all. 
I did enjoy lots of things about your class and people.
It's all sad. But I can't focus on anything else. 
Especially to please all you.

Love truly is the most intelligent, quickly dying, language of our time.





I don't need or want sympathy, sarcasm, inappropriate or really any comments at all...
Life is not something to joke about. 
What might be your cheap thrill of a comment, can easily cost the life of someone in a bad state of mind.

Thank you for those of you who have shown the compassion needed.
Love be with you ALL.

4 comments:

  1. I'm thinking about you and Raine. I hope everything is okay. I agree. There are a lot more important things than school.

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  2. I know you didn't want people to say anything, but I wanted you to know that this helped me. My little sister has attempted and I've seen her go through hell and I'm not sure she's back yet. When you say compassion is basically gone I feel it because she receives almost none and I can't stand it because I'm giving my all.. and I don't think it's enough. People should love and care.. but that doesn't always happen. I wish you the best. And hope she's doing okay.

    Again, thank you.

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    1. Thank you.
      I'm really so sorry to hear that! I wish there was just compassion from everyone, but it's so hard for people, don't stop giving your all! I know how you are feeling exactly actually! It's not easy and you just wish you could fix it all yourself!

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    2. Keep going! We can do it together :)

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